everyone was sending me text messages saying night school was cancelled and to pass it on so of course i fell into the crazy crowd and began passing it on. than, silly me, thought HEY maybe i should ask why.. i mean there really is no snow and maybe i should ask how do they know? because i didn't get no phone call, no posts on the internet, etc. so i texted back to the first person who sent it to me and it turns out blair told her. so i contacted blair and it turns out that blair was actually just not going to night school tonight. so i had to text everyone back saying that night school was infact NOT cancelled. and worst, i had to cancel on my boyfriend because i told him that night school was cancelled and that i could spend the whole afternoon/night with him. i'm so stupid. i feel like i just let him down so hard and worse i let myself down ! i miss him so much. you think it would be easier now that he's back here ! 10 minutes away ! but infact it's so much harder. i see him basically just the same amount as i did before. i could see him so much more if our parents weren't so god damn lame, but no. i have to go to school and my work has to book me everyday for work. i miss him ! i just want to see him everyday like i thought i would. and hang out with him everyday. i have even concidered quitting work so i could see him more often and just not see him on mondays and wednesdays because i have night school. that would be so much better than never seeing him. well it's not never, but sometimes it feels like it. HE'S RIGHT THERE AT MY FINGER TIPS and i can't reach him. that's what it feels like. i miss him so much. ugh. i hate that i got so excited for nothing. i let him down. i feel terrible :(